Monday, October 03, 2005

Second Place

Well, the Red Sox fell to the Yankees on Saturday, allowing the New York Boys to end in first place in the American League East, with my BoSox right behind them in second. The Yanks had been behind all season, but in the end they finished first.

I kind of feel like my Sox at the moment, too. My best friend who was going through her first IVF attempt got the happy, official news yesterday that it worked - she is pregnant! Honestly, I'm ecstatic for her. Her first beta had numbers over 200 so there even may be a possibility of 2. It's the best news I've heard in a long, long time. Yet, there's this part of me that feels like she sprinted to the end of this marathon and just beat me to the finish line. I know I'll get there. And the fact that it worked for her on one try should help me believe that it will work for me too. But her being done (and I really do hope she is!) with the IF game after only being in it for 6 months or so is making me feel even more impatient (if that was possible) for my winning hand to be played.

Plus, I feel selfish for thinking that way.

So, I'm trying to focus only on the good. Just like with the Sox, their second place finish still secured them the Wildcard playoff berth. That's reason to celebrate. Now I'm hoping that next year, my second place finish will secure me a birth and celebration of my own.